Apologies for the lyric video. I’d call this my go-to “deployment song”, although only portions of it actually fit what I feel a lot of the times when I’m over there. It really bounces between different themes and moods. It’s partly a love song, partly a breakup song, and one could even say parts of it are about suicide. For me, it seems to represent the tension between the very real, striking emotions that I do feel toward persons that I’m “missing here in this old life” and the forced detachment which serves to keep me focused and help me get through the immediate challenge of the next day, week or month.